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Lightspeed Lily
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Post subject: Re: Freshmeat and self doubt Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 11:15 am |
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Joined: Thu Aug 12, 2010 12:36 pm Posts: 103
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Shit, I have a teary eye reading this. And I'm at work!
The girls have said it all. We live in a society that prizes instant self-gratification far too much. We struggle to cultivate things, to give them time to grow and develop in its own pace. Translate it into Derby, and here we are, pushing ourselves to our limits, achieving things on a regular basis that would have been unimaginable to us in the past (be it a week, a month or a year in the past) - but yet, we chose to beat ourselves up over our "failures". There's no such thing as failures. There's only obstacles, and sometimes (hopefully most of the time), a mammoth will to overcome them.
I still consider myself very much fresh meat (even though I started to skate in August) and like everyone else, I have felt sad about my inability to perform as well (and as fast) as I'd like, but funnily enough, I never felt like that while in practice. Because if I can be on skates, I always feel I'm achieving something, however small it is, even if it's the simple joy of speeding around the track with amazing people. It's the times when I'm injured and unable to skate at all that I struggle with - to the point of avoiding being around my league mates (as if I can't skate with them, it makes me feel even more out of place) - and I know I have to get over myself and deal with this, as injuries are part of Derby too.
I guess we all have something to learn, we always will. And Derby surely is one hell of a teacher! So, let's just keep calm and derby on...
LL xxx
_________________ Lightspeed Lily
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Tartan_Tearaway
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Post subject: Re: Freshmeat and self doubt Posted: Wed Jan 19, 2011 1:22 pm |
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Joined: Thu Apr 23, 2009 7:54 pm Posts: 1171 Location: Tarty Towers
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I'm loving this thread *Group hug* I used to get so nervious before practice that I would have an "upset tummy", and my legs would shake so much I could hardly stand on my skates. I've now realised 2 1/2 yaers later that removing yourself from your comfort zone and unlocking your potential is actually what Derby is all about. The real 'win' in Derby is when you acheive somehting you never thought you would. I think I had one of those moments at Tattoo Freeze at the wekeend when I escaped my haggis entrapment (little voice in my head saying 'I refuse to be a victim!'). Keep pushing yourself and you will be amazed at how far you can go
_________________ I'm build for comfort, I aint built for speed
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Fight Cub
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Post subject: Re: Freshmeat and self doubt Posted: Thu Jan 20, 2011 12:20 am |
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Joined: Tue Apr 28, 2009 12:03 am Posts: 275 Location: All up in yo' grill
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This is fabulous! The hardest thing to master in skating is definitely learning to pick yourself up and keep going. Perseverence is key! You need it for ever practice and every bout because once you master one thing there will be another trying to stand in your way and you just have to tell it to fuck off!!!! Being fresh meat is incredibly difficult but once you tell yourself you're going to get there and you're going to do that first bout, do the skate out, earn your team shirt and get in the programme you will get there quicker than you think. CHINS UP, BEAUTIFUL LADIES!
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Hymen Trouble
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Post subject: Re: Freshmeat and self doubt Posted: Thu Jan 20, 2011 2:08 am |
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Joined: Wed Jul 07, 2010 9:35 pm Posts: 331 Location: in the pack, with a pantie on my head
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Everything about this thread is wonderful!!!!! We have such a strong and caring league it really helps to have so many amazing women to lean on!!! I started derby last june when I was still struggling with depression after a difficult period; and I have to say it was one of THE BEST DECISIONS I HAVE EVER MADE. To be surrounded by so many strong; couragious; beautiful; determined; self-motivating; approachable women was overwhelming. I was so nervous to begin with as I already felt a part of me had died inside from depression but slowly and surely these women have helped me to rebuild my strength and confidence. They teach you to be strong; hold your head up and keep on going. Push yourself to your limit and beyond bacause 'YOU CAN DO IT'. I still have moments when I feel like I cant go on (25 in 5 and the bitch of a back burn) but your fellow girls supporting you and screaming for you to 'DIG DEEP' keeps you going. I FELL IN LOVE WITH DERBY ALL OVER AGAIN AND ALL THE GIRLS who played at Tattoo Freeze this weekend 'YOU BLEW MY MIND'!!! DERBY
_________________ PUT ON YOUR BIG GIRL PANTIES AND SKATE
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Connie Lingus
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Post subject: Re: Freshmeat and self doubt Posted: Thu Jan 20, 2011 8:33 am |
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Joined: Fri Aug 13, 2010 7:39 pm Posts: 246
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This is kinda everything I've been worried about with derby. I've been putting it off because I do find it hard to remove myself from my comfort zone...as someone who has problems with agoraphobia and anxiety my life tends to be routine and structered and doing something that I know i'm not good at yet is more frightening to me than feeling the burn of an endurance practice Everyone I've met has been so lovely and welcoming which does make it not as daunting, and is probably why I'm still pursuing this. If you guys weren't the nicest group of women i've ever met I wouldn't be bothering! I know I'm going to find it really hard to push myself (and I will need people to kick my ass and force me to!) but I know it will be worth it.
_________________ You better check yo self before you wRECk yo self!
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feeNOMinal
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Post subject: Re: Freshmeat and self doubt Posted: Thu Jan 20, 2011 8:41 am |
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Joined: Sat Apr 17, 2010 2:16 pm Posts: 577 Location: Gorebridge
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Ivanna.B.Whipd wrote: Everything about this thread is wonderful!!!!! We have such a strong and caring league it really helps to have so many amazing women to lean on!!! I started derby last june when I was still struggling with depression after a difficult period; and I have to say it was one of THE BEST DECISIONS I HAVE EVER MADE. To be surrounded by so many strong; couragious; beautiful; determined; self-motivating; approachable women was overwhelming. I was so nervous to begin with as I already felt a part of me had died inside from depression but slowly and surely these women have helped me to rebuild my strength and confidence. They teach you to be strong; hold your head up and keep on going. Push yourself to your limit and beyond bacause 'YOU CAN DO IT'. I still have moments when I feel like I cant go on (25 in 5 and the bitch of a back burn) but your fellow girls supporting you and screaming for you to 'DIG DEEP' keeps you going. I FELL IN LOVE WITH DERBY ALL OVER AGAIN AND ALL THE GIRLS who played at Tattoo Freeze this weekend 'YOU BLEW MY MIND'!!! DERBY i can sympathise and wholeheartedly agree with all of this. I love you loads xxxxx
_________________ wRECking balls of pure steel!!!
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Kirds-n-Slay
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Post subject: Re: Freshmeat and self doubt Posted: Thu Jan 20, 2011 9:07 am |
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Connie wrote: I know I'm going to find it really hard to push myself (and I will need people to kick my ass and force me to!) but I know it will be worth it. I'll happily do that with some encouragement thrown in! ^_^ Ivanna - Totally agree. Even though I didn't get around to doing FM until this year, finding derby last year is still my best ever discovery. This is the first thing in such a long time that I've felt mega passionate about.
_________________ Blame it on the love of wRECk and roll
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Depeche Maude
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Post subject: Re: Freshmeat and self doubt Posted: Thu Jan 20, 2011 11:12 am |
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Joined: Mon Aug 09, 2010 8:58 am Posts: 449
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Debris Harry wrote: I whole heartedly agree with all of the above! I was in the fortunate (and I've since learned, rare) position of being able to skate before I went to fresh meat , but have spent A LOT of time beating myself up about the team sport side of things, tactics/awareness etc, as that is completely new to me and is still something I struggle with muchly. Therefore anyone who embarks on derby maddness while also learning to skate has my instant respect!
I just want to reiterate this. Being able to skate is all well and good but it's certainly only a small fraction of what you need to be good at derby. There are loads of people who take a wee bit longer to get up to speed with the skating (pun intended) but who are phenomenal at the team sport/communication/awareness side of things. I really admire people who have the perseverance to get back up over and over again because I'm not sure I'm a big enough person to do that... Derby, however, is building that determination. Also as someone who's done a fair few sports before, the initial learning/pain curve is always steep -because no matter how fit you are, different sports use different muscles- and you just have to keep going through the "hell" stage and give it your all even when you feel like you're dying.
_________________ I'm rolling on sunshine...
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Miss Chief
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Post subject: Re: Freshmeat and self doubt Posted: Fri Jan 28, 2011 9:19 am |
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Joined: Tue Mar 09, 2010 5:22 pm Posts: 284 Location: Edinburgh
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Aww, this is a really nice thread to read.
I've been so nervous about coming back cause I've missed three (ish?) months and I know I'm going to be horribly unfit and all over the place at the start. It's the hardest thing I've ever done, and I think I've built up in my head "oh no, I'm rubbish, I'm too slow, maybe I'll just leave it another week." But that's not helping!
So nice to know that you're not all speedy, hard-hitting skatey goddesses. I'm coming back on Sunday, definitely. Eeee.
_________________ Wreck & roll!
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Anne Thrax
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Post subject: Re: Freshmeat and self doubt Posted: Fri Jan 28, 2011 12:24 pm |
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Joined: Sat Sep 04, 2010 12:23 am Posts: 51
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This is such a lovely heartwarming thread. Its just so rare to be amongst a group of people (who, when you first start, are virtual strangers) who are so caring, supportive, unjudgemental and, above all else, honest. It means so much, (I'm sure you will all agree with me!) to be able to share not just moments of pride and achievement, but also crippling doubt and insecurities. Dancing bananas for all! xxxx
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